Friday, April 3, 2009 time flies!!!

Well here it is, April 3rd. The day after my baby boy turned 5. I just can't believe how fast the time goes. I can remember being in the hospital holding him. He's so excited for tomorrow (Saturday). It's his birthday party. We are having it at the Big Bear, it's one of our local ice rink arena's and has a big gym in it as well. We rented the gym and the floor hockey equipment as well as some hula hops and scooter boards for the kids. We also have a pinata and glo sticks for them. I made an awesome batman tower cake for him so he's super excited!! See the pic of my cake below, keep in mind I took it with my cell so the quality is grainy. I will post some better ones after the party on my facebook...

Zack will be in kindergarten next year. It was so surreal while I was in registering him, I kept thinking oh my goodness, my baby is starting school. He's already gone to headstart but still, this will be all day kindergarten. I just can't believe it. He's very excited. We are planning a trip to my sisters in Ohio for Easter weekend, we are also very excited about that. We are talking about going to a Cleveland Indians game...that will be really neat for me since I've never been to one. I am also planning another trip down there in August to bring Zack to Cedar point and of course do some school clothes shopping :)

I am almost all finished up with my classes. I will be done the end of June and will have my associates degree in medical coding and billing. I am pretty sure I'm going to go on for my bachelors but am going to take a much needed summer break to give myself a little rest. It's tough working full time, taking care of Zack and trying to find the time to finish school work. I'm usually up pretty late working on homework. It's ok though, I know it's important for both Zack and myself :-)

I know I don't blog often but will try to from time to time...I'm always reading everyone's blogs, especially my aunties. I LOVE all her "try it" blogs.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

February 17th...

Well, today would have been my 8th wedding anniversary. It was funny, I was up most of the night dealing with my son since he was sick. We were exhausted this morning. Once we got up and moving, I had finished a load of laundry and Zack was watching a movie. I decided to jump on the computer to check some of my favorite sites. My mouse flashed across the time and up pops the date...then it dawned on me what today was.

I'm a little sad in a way. I guess I feel like a failure since my marriage didn't work and I very much wanted it to. I sometimes wonder what my "family" would be like today if we were still together. I guess if the past years were any clue, I would have to say it would be very sad and miserable. It's been said that in time people change...I believe that to be semi-true. I feel that YOU choose who and what your going to be. No matter what life deals to you, if your sincere in your beliefs then that is what your life is going to be. I've had to realize that I was not all to blame for the failure in my marriage. It takes two...that's my the one goal I have promised to do for myself is to raise my son to be a considerate, loving, caring person who will treat those he cares for with respect. I want to be a good role model for him. Most of all, I just want to enjoy my time with him. Watching him grow and learn is a wonderful gift and I thank god EVERY day for that chance. I have been through so much in my life so I just keep reminding myself on those "sad" days that if I can handle all I've been through, I can handle anything else that comes my way.

Remember, cherish your wives, husbands and kids. You never know what things can change forever.